As described as the title, i was once lost, but i wanna be found and have an amazing grace in my life. When on my way back home these days, i across the rarely peaceful place of the city of Shanghai. Hengshan road, a street owns lots of bars marks the nite life of the city. All kinds of people could be found when i across almost around eight o'clock. Walking slowly and watching people acrossing with the quickened shift of mind is something interesting for me. In a sense, life is pretty much like an unsolicited wager，the luck of the draw.  I wonder why are some people born smarter, wealthier, healthier or better looking than others?  Why do bad things happen to good people?  There are no answers to many questions in life.  It all boils down to luck, fate or God’s will, some might say.  Especially the chance for me to sight see so many so called aristocracy or elite of the city these days. Some of them are gentle enough to convince themselves as high-educated person, while some are not that polite or elegant to persuade people to believe that they are acknowledged person. Sometimes i will say "i read Neitzsche", while sometimes i will lost myself in reality and say as mentioned above"it's fate". After the trainning by my ELITE boss, i couldn't help myself to rebuting him. What is the main point in life? Of coz it depends on individuals. For me, the so called TASTE is not that important, instead, a person should have his own value towards life, having a good heart and do no evil.  I am even strongly disagree the view of Chinese Disdain. Becoz China is a developing country, it is no wonder that people here in China are different in receiving education. The traditional Chinese culture, our own value, and Chinese doctrine of the golden mean, determined our oriental culture. Orient people are not that crazy as western people and we appreciate veiled beauty. So in my view, Chinese people are not NO TASTE at all and can i say that the so called TASTE in someone's mind is a kind of occidentalization? Shanghai’s Westerners indulged in an orgy of extravagance. I can meet so many foreigners accompanyed by charming Chinese ladies every day. Is this situation a kind of developing of TASTE? And even sometimes some of these BEAUTIFUL LADIES are like maids. The combinition maybe enabled some of them to have a sense of being in the first class and they are proud as peacock, forgetting they are Chinese, so they may be RUDE to Chinese. Is the situation like business transactionand of human? White people pay and buy some chinese girls with euro which is ten times higher than chinese yuan? They are rich and educated or hypocrite becoz of their race? Besides the existence of true love, my questions hover in my mind and make me disagree certain views of these billionaires and celebrities. As a Chinese, albeit majored in English language and literature in my univ period and appreciated some western culture, I find it disgusting that such a HYPOCRISY happened in my sight. Is the hypocrisy of using wealth to wash away commercial sins and buy love, respect and friendship, or say, buy the so called TASTE? there is no answer. While in my career journey, seeking for equilibrium between inner heart and reality is my rule, i hope to find a good company to devote myself regardless of the hard to find a job under the financial crisis. In chinese, it is 宁缺毋滥. God bless me.

albeit my poor level of written english, i push myself to write something in english. still need practice more to improve my english.lol